marchele

Sun, 03 Jan 2010 05:27:14 GMT

"did you know that when people appear in your dreams, it's because that person wants to see you."
-time magazine

i had an amazing dream of you last night. it was everything that i could have ever hoped for. i absolutely cannot wait for you.
you're killing me, smallz.

Wed, 30 Dec 2009 07:09:00 GMT

i'm never going to find a guy that respects me.

ever.

Mon, 28 Dec 2009 17:26:39 GMT

inner conflicts really fucking suck.
i know what i want on both ends, but both ends seem to negate themselves so i'm stuck with nothing.
yet again.

i just need february to come, that's all.
then allll of this will just be a dream.
a terrible, longlasting, heart-wrenching dream.

Fri, 25 Dec 2009 00:29:25 GMT

i lovelovelove being the favorite.

oh, and pigs in a blanket.

Wed, 23 Dec 2009 06:18:08 GMT

another two weeks?
you're killing me, smallz.

but it's okay
because after that, it's only one more month
and then i get youuuuuu :)

Mon, 21 Dec 2009 13:57:55 GMT

life is goooood for the moment.
i'm all gooey again.
being a woman sucks though.
oh well.

februaryyyyyyyy<3

Fri, 18 Dec 2009 09:02:36 GMT

haven't heard from loren in almost two weeks, which is odd.
i don't know if i miss him? i miss other people.. but that's neither here nor there.
we'll see how THAT one goes.

oh, btw, burton is married. did anyone see that coming?
fucking married.
"ohhh i care about you, wanna be with you, mehhh i'm not like every other guy."
"i lied to you. i'm married. you deserve better."
fucking men, i swear to god. i should've been gay.

wish i could hold you up in my arms
keep you safe and sound from any harm
i can't seem to function from this far away
and every little moment looks so dull
without your color in my day
oh, it feels so good to hear you speak
this is where i start to miss you more than i can bear
i hate this distance in between us, i don't think it's fair
all my time spent wondering how i stay true to you
but you're not here, and now i fear
i'll never get back to you
there's so much that you've missed.
everyone is afraid that you've changed.
maybe i'm in way over my head.

Tue, 08 Dec 2009 08:14:11 GMT

-on webcam-

loren: there are 3 things that i am bred to do
loren: fight
loren: fuck
me: having trouble with a third?
loren: -looks stumped-
me: BUSTEDDDDDDD
loren: okay 2 things
loren: i'm sure there's a third but i don't have to justify myself to you

-five minutes later-
loren: okay the third thing is messages
me: you're bred to fight, fuck, and message.
loren: unfortunately we can't do any of those right now
loren: yes
me: you can't message?
me: does this mean you're leaving?
loren: mesage, hahaha
me: I DON'T KNOW WHAT THAT MEANS
loren: like with oils and shit
me: ohhhhhhh, massage
me: wrong vowel haha
loren: fuck i hate my horrible education level

Thu, 03 Dec 2009 07:52:48 GMT

i want to lay in bed and listen to every love song that i have in my iTunes library.

the scene aesthetic, city and colour, secondhand serenade, mae, demi lovato, all of it.
i'm in that mood.

come cuddle.

there is something that i must confess to you tonight
to you tonight
and that is i expect nothing less from you tonight
from you tonight

Sun, 29 Nov 2009 08:08:40 GMT

i really am wasting my time.

Sun, 29 Nov 2009 06:57:19 GMT

i can never just have a good day.
there's always a high and then a low.
and the low never ever comes first.
it's always the last thing before bed.

it's nights like these that i just want to die.

Tue, 24 Nov 2009 20:06:41 GMT

ohhhhhhh, what to do what to do..

Mon, 23 Nov 2009 23:12:23 GMT

soo much going on in february.

tiiiime machiiiine, i want it.

boy vs. boy
hmmm..
what to do, what to do!

Fri, 20 Nov 2009 22:09:18 GMT

everything that you have yelled at me for is everything that you have become.
BAMMMM!!

Fri, 20 Nov 2009 18:32:24 GMT

uh, so i hope that loren and nick know that monica and i are totally bunking with them when loren comes home.
our rent payment will be cooking, cleaning, ya know.. womanly duties.
but one of the guys get the couch.
monica and i claim a bedroom.

breakfast will consist of hashbrowns, cheese, and ketchup every morning.

Thu, 19 Nov 2009 18:25:31 GMT

NEW MOON TONIGHT :D

Mon, 16 Nov 2009 18:11:53 GMT

i hate having a manager trainee at the store. he's fucking taking alll of my goddamn hours and i can't even pay my bills. i'm so stressed out, this is ridiculous. when i get paid this week, it's all going towards bills. not going to have any money for gas, food, rent. just bills.

Mon, 16 Nov 2009 01:11:24 GMT

me (8:06:48 PM): you are my breath of fresh air in this shit hole.
monica (8:09:24 PM): anytime babydoll.
monica (8:09:38 PM): you know I won't let you tolerate anything less than you deserve.
monica (8:09:43 PM): I wouldn't be a good friend if I did.
monica (8:09:53 PM): and for you I want to be the best.

amen, sister.
amen <3

Mon, 16 Nov 2009 00:53:19 GMT

this whole situation is making me feel like shit.

all i ask for is honesty and respect.

Mon, 09 Nov 2009 22:56:00 GMT

life has been pretty good lately.
i mean, my job isn't that great and i'm not getting a lot of hours..
THANKS NORM.
but my friends are awesome.
my home life is awesome.
and i'm talking to a really cool guy :]
so as far as that goes, i'm content.
but i gotta go to plattsburgh on thursday to take care of my speeding ticket.
and queensbury was adjourned until next monday.
fuck speeding, srsly.
and veteran's day on wednesday.
my direct deposit is gonna be a day late.
FUCK.
so i gotta clear my stewart's account tomorrow, deposit it into my capcom account, and then pay my car insurance.

but other than that, i'm okay.

Fri, 06 Nov 2009 08:28:08 GMT

hey, it could happen.

Tue, 03 Nov 2009 06:00:13 GMT

i wish my dad could get a grip on reality.

i'm going to chicago in february. i am not moving out there. i am not staying for an extended period of time. i am not throwing my life away by going on a road trip with one of my best friends.
i am being twenty and i am having a good time.
ACCEPT IT.

Mon, 02 Nov 2009 09:02:37 GMT

mehhh i'm a zombie.

okay so.. friday, i went down to scotia and spent the night with face :D price chopper was close though. wtf. went to the gas station, i forgot which one. SUNOCO, thanks. saturdayyy i hung out with ashleigh <3 i miss her so much it's crazy. i remember we used to hang out almost everyday over the summer, and now i barely see her ever. sucks big bawlz. i worked for an hour. and then went to joe's. got wayyy trashed and took pictures on my phone. i don't remember half of them. it was so nice seeing everyone again <3. went to work today at 330. WORKED WITH MIKE AND PAUL. YESYESYES. best working combination ever. i jizzed a few times.

i've been procrastinating going downstairs because i want to stay with the puppy. but i reallyyyyy have to watch tool academy. like, have to. there's only like.. four of them left. three. stew, tyler, terry, uh.. i think that's it. charm went home last week. OH MY GOD I'M SO EXCITED TO SEE IT AHHHH!

Mon, 02 Nov 2009 07:11:06 GMT

-fight fight fight-
me: i'm stubborn, what do you want from me!
him: just you.

/fight

Fri, 30 Oct 2009 06:36:44 GMT

me: it's not fair that you're so far away. i can see this distance thing is going to be a problem.
him: it does allow us to not confuse this with the physical though
me: yeah, but it's nights like these where you just get so cute that i just want to lay my head on your chest and fall asleep.
him: one leg over mine and hand running through your hair?
me: just like that.
him: we can do that.